Hello!

This blog is seriously in need of an update.  It has been so long.

And because it's been so long I've decided to write a few things about me.  So here goes:

All About Me

I don't like chocolate.  No kind of chocolate.  Not white chocolate, or chocolate pie, or chocolate cake or chocolate candy.  Nothing chocolate.

Now that we got that out of the way, on with the interview with myself.

I can be irritatingly detailed.  I really enjoy details.  I like to know step by step.

I am tidy and organized and ordered.  I think in numbers and shapes.  My clothes hang in the closet by color.  The colors are in order of the rainbow.  My accessories are by color beginning with solid black all the way to geometric multicolored print.  My shoes......... well, you get the picture.

My favorite two television shows:  Dog the Bounty Hunger and Tabatha Takes Over!
I also like Parenthood and Roseanne.  Crazy

I am a prekindergarten teacher who likes to update her interest centers weekly.  Of course if it's been popular I will leave a center another few days.  If it's not working and causing lots of problems I'll shut that sucker down in one day!

I do not enjoy loud women.

If I'm in the right hand lane and am stopped by a red light, I'll automatically make a right turn just so I won't block the car behind me who has their right blinker on.  Then I'll just make a U-Turn and get back on the main highway.  I'm also a "let-er out-er"  I'll slow and let anybody out.

I do not like to talk on the telephone

I vacuum every day.   Sometimes just one room.

I collect Donny Osmond memorabilia.

I have a coupon binder that I update weekly.  I keep my expenses on an excel sheet.  So I know I usually save 22% a week on groceries.  I save 50% on CVS purchases.  Now CVS - play "the game" and they will just about pay you to shop there.

On my DVR:  

North America -  National Geographic Channel
Home For Dinner - Food Network
Call The Midwife - PBS

School is out for the summer.  Can I get a HALLELUJAH!!

Tell me a little about you.

Quiet Girls and Senior Prom

Last night at dinner my sweet, timid high school senior daughter told us she is going to her Senior Prom.  I was surprised as she has never attended a school dance in the past.  I was immediately protective of her.  She is not a social butterfly.  She has little or no experience in the hows and whats of a large group of teenagers.  Unusual, yes.  But years ago I decided to accept her as she is.  Quiet and timid and a little self conscious.  Okay, a lot self conscious.  

While other Moms were pushing their daughters into dance and pageants and student government, I loved mine.  Yes, those other Moms love their daughters, too.  But I refused to be one of those moms who lives their "wish I would have" life through their daughter.  I found it confusing and hurtful.  Did my own mother do that to me?  Oh yes.  And when I didn't show interest in those things she absolutely was embarrassed of me.  To this day I think she's disappointed.  

But back to my story.

I.T. girl makes excellent grades.  She is kind and respectful.  Her room is always a mess.  She adores her older brother and enjoys her younger sister.  She has an excellent sense of direction.  (she did not inherit that from me!)  I have never had to worry about her making a dangerous choice.  But oh yes, I worry about her.  

So when she said she and some friends were meeting at a restaurant and then would ride together to the prom and that she was going to go to the mall and pick out a dress today or tomorrow............ I was speechless.  What? Who are these friends?  Is she.......... will she be alright?  Will she have fun?  Will she feel awkward?  I immediately wanted to protect her.  

I'm excited that she wants to go.  I'm amazed and thrilled that she is brave enough to attend.  Ironman and I have instilled in her a sense of family trust, unconditional love and support.  

And so next Saturday night I'll send her off and I'll worry about her until she returns.

The last month of school

In keeping with tradition, the faculty and staff at my school is barely hanging in there.   It happens at every school I've worked.  Teachers are beat.  Students are distracted.  Administration is under the gun to get things finished up and tied with a bow.  I guess you could say that we are overwhelmed.

And so we hate each other.

Hate is a strong word.  So I guess I should say we are SICK OF EACH OTHER.  But because we are adults and professionals and we realize it's a seasonal thing, we are all hanging in there.  For we know that the last day is a-coming.  And on that day we always feel sentimental and all those stressful feelings disappear with the last car in the pick up line.

How's that for poetic?

Screech!!!

I am NOT feeling poetic.  Not one bit.

This has been a difficult year.  I have patience left.  And I have a tail end of good attitude murking nearby.  But I am tired.  And honestly?  I'm bored!  Yes, BORED.  I've never been that way before so it's new.

In order to keep my perspective, I'm going to try to chronicle the whys, wheres and hows.  Then maybe I can figure some things out.

1.  There is no bonding between teachers.

It's taken me this long, but I really think that's the core problem.  I've never met a faculty like this one.  I've always had at least ONE buddy.  Teachers know how invaluable it is to have a buddy next door.  Somebody who will understand your frustrating days without judgement, be there to help you out and most importantly celebrate success without feeling jealous.  Yes, that's it.

The faculty at my present school has none of that.  Well, let me put it this way.  I'm not a part of the set aside crowd.  Why?  I've been trying to figure it out.   And so I actually sat and made a little chart.  See?  I'm bored!!  Same and Different.  And wow, did the different side ever win!

How I'm different:

I'm married.  I've been married for 25 years.   The other 3 teachers?  All divorced and currently single.
I don't mean that as a judgement thing.  But it's a fact.  When they are making dinner plans, or casino plans, I'm preparing to go home and do some things around my house.  My husband is there.  Blah blah blah.  I did join them once.  ONCE!  And it was awkward and weird and I swore I'd never go again.  At first they'd invite me and I'd politely take a rain check.  Now the invitation is lost in the mail.  I guess that made me come across as.................. I don't know.

I'm a Christian.

Now, my faith never comes up in conversation.  It's never really been an issue.  I can work with anybody.  But here it's a major THANG.  I've stood next to a teacher who was actually making fun of Christian Beliefs.  I was shocked!  I didn't know people actually did that.  Am I naive?  We have all faiths, creeds and nationalities at my school.  And I know if my little Muslim Child's mother was standing there this particular teacher would NEVER bring up religion.  Much less make fun of it.  Wow!  I was shocked.  I have learned that there are so many misconceptions about Christ Followers.  I've only had one short conversation about it with one teacher.  I kept it thoughtful and kind, I hope.  But I could tell she disagreed with me.  Wow.

I haven't read Fifty Shades of Gray

And I never will.  Not into porn.  Not even Mommy Porn.  When the talk began on the playground (they were all reading it and sharing the books) I would casually walk away and find a child to attend.  Isn't that what we're out there for anyway?


Maybe I should balance this post with the good things that happened this week.

1.  I have 3 mothers write me sweet notes about the good difference they see in their child since they've been in my room.  One little boy would have tremendous fits of anger and frustration that have now all but disappeared.    So, thank you in return.

2.  I've been able to ride to and from school everyday with my  8th grade daughter.  We've had some good conversations in the car.

3.  I've learned about myself.  I've learned that I have a lot of valuable skills and expertise.  I've learned that all those workshops I've suffered through......... and most of the stuff I learned was at the time thought to be useless and impractical.......... but now WOW!  Working in a school like this has shown me how important my training is.

4.  I worked for a tuition discount for Dancer Girl.  She will "graduate" middle school and move to another high school.  So I will no longer need the discount.

5.  I am ready to leave.  There is no second thoughts.  I'm sure of it.  There is no job that I would want in the whole school.

6.  My husband is a hero.

I could go on and on and on.  I have 25 more school days, 3 graduation ceremonies, 1 braces removal day to look forward to.  Updates to follow I'm sure.

ToodlesI

The Day I Fell at Work

Today I fell on the playground.  There are a few steps that lead up to the sandbox area, or down from the sandbox area which was the direction I was going.  The playground surface is turf and it had sprinkled earlier in the morning so the ground was damp.  I also had on sandals.  Anyway like most falls it happened so quickly that the whole thing is a blur.  But I slipped on step #3 and just skipped the rest of the way down banging my underarm on the right side as I tried to catch myself.  YES, IT HURT.

It burned.  I actually saw the bruise develop right before my eyes.  I was wearing a light long sleeve jacket so maybe the thin fabric protected my arm from a scrape or abrasion.  But oh the bruising.

I gathered my composure as quickly as one does and looked around.  Nobody saw.  NOBODY SAW??

There were really no children nearby playing which is the reason I was walking away from the sand area.  30 feet away near the swing sets were no less than 6 adults.  SIX.  And not one of them saw me fall?  What if I had banged my head?  Would they have noticed I was lying there unconscious?

The burning and pain lasted over an hour.  I did hold a small ice pack that we keep in the class refrigerator for bobos on the bruise.   It didn't really help the pain, just made my arm feel cold.  I took a couple of advil and at 11am I noted that it didn't hurt anymore.  So the throbbing and burning lasted over an hour and a half.

I feel better now and am sporting a good looking gigantic bruise.

But here's the bigger question:  Do you notice things around you?  In a public place, do you notice people and situations?  The military calls it situational awareness.  I see it everyday.  Parents who do not pull all the way through the carpool line and instead stop at the first slot seemingly unaware that there are 30 cars behind them that would like to speed things up.  And while we're on the subject of carpool lines, at least once a week we have a near miss.  One happened today.  A mother talking on her cell phone and completely unaware of traffic walked right out in front of a car going through the carpool line.  I mean she walked RIGHT OUT IN FRONT of a moving vehicle.  We don't have safety things like that happen with the students, it's the parents!

I see it in church.  Do you not see that family of five searching for a group of seats together?  Don't you think you should scoot down ONE SEAT so that everyone can fit?  I've actually tapped someone on the shoulder before and asked if they'd mind scooting down one (or two) to accommodate more worshippers.  It's church people!!  Crazy.

Don't get me started on the grocery store shoppers who walk right in front of me and stand there looking through the brownie mixes.  Excuse me, did you see me standing right here?  And you chose to step in front of me?

I often wonder if I do dingbat things like these.  Do I notice?  Do I pay attention?  As a detailed oriented person I think I do.  I'll have to pay attention to myself to see if I pay attention!

On moving on

I first started this blog as a venue to rant about selling my house.  Ironman and I had moved to a new city and were forced to rent a teeny tiny house in a crowded neighborhood for over a year while our sprawling house on a big lot sat empty 2 hours away.  It was a bumpy time.  Money was tight but not as tight as our living quarters.  I designated one entire room to boxes.  Stacked 3 and 4 high and lined in rows so you could get in and our.  My organizational skills and handy dandy labeler were best buds.

I would blog daily.  I'd fuss about the realtor's lack of concern that we were living on the edge.  I'd wonder if we'd ever get back to normal.  And I questioned our move.

Sure I was talking to myself but that was A-OK with me.

Thirteen months and 10 days later our house SOLD.  Ironman and I did not speak as we drove to the closing.  We had 4 offers fall through when the buyers reached the financing part of the deal.  Four times my heart had risen only to be dumped and stomped on.  So time #5 was faced with trepidation

We signed our sellers papers and left the attorney's office.  Our realtor told us the buyers would be signing their papers at 3:30.  Oh how I watched the clock.  Finally at 6pm I took a breath.  We had sold our house.  S.O.L.D.  That was on a Wednesday.  The following Monday we made an offer and bought the house where we currently live.

I chronicled all that in this blog.  And since them I haven't had much of a focus.

Well, today has changed all that.

I'm going to give as many updates as I can as I search for a new job.  The job I have now is boring and mind numbingly slow.  I have been an elementary school teacher for 15 years.  No two days are ever the same.  I enjoy the fast pace, the slow dance, the noise and the peace.  I find working with other women to be annoying and exhilerating.  When you have a buddy next door at school, the days are fun and satisfying.  I love that.

I was offered my current job soon after we moved.  It would mean I'd be working at the same school where we had enrolled my youngest daughter .  The pay was that of a slave worker.  But I would receive a discount in tuition for Dancer Girl plus two afternoons off.  So I took it.

I've questioned that decision a zillion times.

I do NOTHING.  I mean it.  I'm just a warm body.  I'm never asked my opinion or my idea.  If I mention something it's met with blank stares and sometimes eye rolls.  Of course, they don't think I notice the eye rolls.

I gave the Director my notice a few weeks ago.  I told her the truth.  That I was bored.  And frustrated.  And disgusted.  And struggling to keep a good attitude.

My last day will be May 24, the last day of school.

I can not wait!

Am I worried about finding a new job?  A little.  But I know it'll work out.  Something will turn up.

I'll try not to complain everyday!

Hello Blog

It has been exactly two weeks since I've blogged.  TWO WEEKS PEOPLE!  Life is just so dang busy.
Stop the planet.  I want to get off.

I decided I'd just list the fun facts I've learned the last 14 days.  On your mark.  Get set.  GO

1.  J Crew has discontinued it's educator's discount.  I need a moment........

2.  You can grow vegetables from kitchen scraps.  Right now I have both celery and red onion growing on my window sill.  I'll post pix later.  NO smarty, it won't be another 14 days until I do that.....

3.  409 spray cleaner must sit on the surface for 10 minutes in order to disinfect your countertops.  So now I spray, do a few more things, return in 10 minutes to wipe it down.  It's shinier if you wait, too.

4.  Church people can be mean.  I've always known that as I'm a regular church goer.  And being a regular church goer I fancied myself savvy enough in the ways of humans to overlook occasional out and out meanness.  Is overlooking it really just enabling it?  Sometimes you gotta make your way through the church people to find the Christ Followers.

5.  P90X works!  I stared the 90 day challenge on December 17.  Every morning since I've force myself out of bed and pushed play.  Did I miss a workout here and there?  Yes  Did I eat clean everyday?  No.  Did I quit? No!  I've lost 2 sizes.  TWO!  I've "only" lost 10 pounds and if I dwell on that I'll feel frustration.  But this morning I slipped into a size 12 and I was thrilled!  I think I'm addicted to it.  I check the calendar each evening to see which DVD is recommended.  I set up the workout clothes, shoes and yoga mat.  My alarm rings at 4:45am and by 5am I'm warming up.  By 6am I'm in the shower and I feel so GREAT!  Go!  NOW!  Get the program.

6.  The Engineer is more mature than I.

7.  I married up.



Toodles

Hello Spring!

It's a sunny day!  Yes, it's 45 degrees, but hey I see sunshine!

I've had a busy week.  Normal busy-ness and then some unexpected busy-ness so this blog has been neglected.  But I think about you every day, blog.  Does that count?

Today I'd like to address an issue that just bugs the tar out of me.



Yoga pants. 


 And not just yoga pants, I'm talking those skin tight spandex leggings.  Ladies, these are NOT PANTS.  Not REAL out in public pants.  Nobody wants to see your entire booty.  And that's what we see when you turn around.  There is NOTHING left to the imagination.  I mean, would you wear only pantyhose and a t shirt in public?  Because basically, that's what you have on.  It's borderline indecent.  I'd snap a photo but I'd probably be reported to the FBI for having porn on the internet.

I don't even like it on little 4 year old girls.  Put shorts over them.  Or pull a little dress over them.  Make sure your top is long enough to cover your bottom!

I guess you think if you got the body why not show it.  Well, show it somewhere else, sistah.  I don't want to see.

With the temperature outside slowly warming the spandex tights will be replaced with short shorts.  And the shorts I'm talking about are the Nike shorts.  Now when you are 8 or 9 or 10 these shorts are fine.  But when you are 48 and 49 and 50 these shorts look ridiculous.  Unless you are working out in the gym.  Wearing them around town?  Not so great looking.   No, I don't think you should wear Mom jeans.  But I do think you should cover up those white thighs.

While I'm on my fashion/appropriate daywear rant, let me move on to another thing that drives me crazy.  Ugg boots.  Yes, UGLY.  Don't wear them.  Ever.  And throw out the crocs.


In closing I have a few words for my co-workers.  I can't keep my trap shut any longer.
Here goes:

To W - you are a know it all, spoiled brat.  When you resigned to become a full time Mom you honestly expected to continue to receive the school benefits?  (tuition discount for your own children to attend)  Yes, you did.  Come on!  Did you expect to continue on the payroll?  Guess so

To RR - Oh my gosh, lady.  Put some clothes on!  You are 52 for goodness sakes.  And be nice.

To K - Hello!!  Do you notice anybody else?  Could you speak?  Or even look up and notice there's another living breathing human near you?  I'm not impressed.

To S - Girl.  Come on.  Have some personal boundaries.  Get a backbone.

To Sh - Why are you still here?  They don't appreciate your talent.  You could make so much more money somewhere else.  I hope the administration will wake up and give you a shot.  I think you'd be marvelous

To A - shhhhhhhh.  Inside voice.

To L - please don't tell me you graduated from college again.  Congratulations, but we ALL have been there, done that.  So move on.


Whew.  Got a lot off my chest.  Tomorrow I'll be back to keeping my mouth shut with a smile on my face.  2 more months...........


Toodles